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Forbidden Feelings

Forbidden Feelings

Forbidden Feelings

Forbidden Feelings
Every word you say,
Paints a beautiful picture in my mind,
One I would love to hold on to.
One I would love to cherish,
One I would like to share with you!

My soul is swept away in a breeze,
Emotions awaken,
Dreams ignited,
And a desire to have and hold
consumes me.

At that moment,
In a flicker, pain pops in,
Truth is we are not meant to be,
Forbidden feelings it is.

Truth sets one free,
But who wants to hear the truth
When it’s against them.

Feelings should be respected,
A miracle prayed for
But should dreams of pain,
And forbidden feelings
Be embraced?

Am tired of hoping against hope,
Am tired of holding on a dream
I can’t sustain.
Am tired of guilt
Forbidden feelings

Beneth
22/02/2011

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Drowning in love

Drowning in love

That mystery face you carry of late
Those lips that move to smile
So often than usual
That glow in yo’eyes,
It has been long since I saw that.
I have come to love the woman I see.

You toss, turn and laugh in sleep
I know you have happy dreams
Filled with flower gardens and water falls.
What has changed in you?
I wonder.

You’re drowning in love
What else makes your heart lighter,
Awakes your passion and seal?
I love the moment,
And I know you love it to…
I pray it lasts forever.

By Beneth
14/01/2010

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Hurting your feelings

Hurting your feelings

Rushing through life
With less concern of whatever was around me,
Not even a reminder that
I owe you this moment.

I did not know
That putting work 1st hurts you,
That putting self 1st makes me selfish,
That going out with my friends,
Leaves you so alone and bored.

Am sorry,
Sorry, for forgetting
That I make the biggest part of your life,
Am sorry for failing to remember
What I mean to you,
Am sorry for hurting for your feelings

I hope to take it slow,
Enjoy each moment that I share with you,
Beneth,
16/07/2010

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Look at me

Look at me

Sitting here all pretty yet you don’t see
The fact that I’m doing nothing with my life
I’m not anyone’s wife, instead I’m having fun
My life is not done, at least am better than you
And there’s nothing you can say or do

Gosh am tired of lies,
You say am good when you don’t believe in you own words.
You hate the fact that I’m alive,
Yet am trying to survive,
I struggle like any other man on earth

You’re my number one fan,
Instead of hating the fact,
Just embrace it,
Denying it won’t change a thing.

Am pretty, what a pity
Your loss not mine
So look at me now.

By Beneth, 12/05/2010

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The one and only

The one and only

I felt my heart drop,
As I watched you go
It’s like I died that moment.

My heart, poor heart,
Nothing matters anymore!
No laughter, joy, or happiness

May be am giving up too fast?
May be he will come back?
Was that the one and only one for me?
Did I lose my chance for ‘happy-ever after’?
These questions are killing me.

Oh God, Tell me
Was he…
Was he one and only?

I hope he was not,
For I have a great love to share.
And still I need love in my life.


By Beneth, 12/05/2010

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Mr. Gentle Hash

Mr. Gentle Hash

He came to my life,
Like a wind that harms no plant,
Gently my heart opened,
Like a flower opens to the rain

Soon, everything was fishy,
The care, faded away,
Without warning!

My heart was left hang on a spider rope
Assured of falling and breaking
I don’t even have a chance to plea my case
Or even a second hearing.

Something will forever be misunderstood,
I wish our eyes can see into the hearts of others,
May be then I will understand
All the questions he left in my heart

Much as I want a knife in my hands
All I can do is to shake off the mad,
Life seems to have more in store.

By Beneth, 12/05/2010