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Not you, but me

Like the wind chasing leaves off a branch,

So did I chase you away from me,

I know it puzzles you,

But don’t take it on yourself,

Nor wonder if anything is wrong with you

 

I understand your pain,

I know it hurts badly inside

And I know you need answers

I have been there, done same things

But acting over it does not take pain away

 

Loosen up, cry, shout, yell… whatever

Get that pain out of your heart

I need others to meet the ‘you’ I knew,

Continue to be the great person I met,

Well knowing it’s not you, but me.

 

Beneth 15/08/2012

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Do you think about me, as much I think about you?

Time has passed since we called it quiets, however you’re still on my mind… much as I don’t want to admit it, “I miss you!”

I know I hurt you, but that was just because I was scared to love. However, that is not an excuse for what I did.

Just know whatever I whatever did hurt me as much as it hurt you… for I love you so much. “What I weird way of showing it?”, “Yeah, it’s weird but so true.”

Every place we visited, every moment we shared is just all on my mind like an endless opera. Only that it’s so sad to watch myself treating you so badly when all you do is to love me.

Am just wondering; do you think about me as much as I think about you? Are you crazy enough to give us another chance? I would like to re-write the script of the opera.

Let me know if you’re crazy enough to play in the opera again.

By Beneth

(love letters)

29/11/2010

This part of “Back to loneliness” chapter of Rosiyanah

Watch the space, Rosiyanah will soon be out.

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Lonely house

Lonely house

Am seated on the floor watching TV.
Pictures of u are still on the wall,
Like you still live here with me.

Frustration drives me to a bottle,
Drinking myself silly to forget
The fact that am so lonely.
Am trying to keep my pride,
Yet all I want is cry

Would it help if I told u I miss u.
Will it change a thing if I said am sorry.
Will you understand my pain if you said
I have been like this since the day you left.

My house is so lonely,
Am even scared of the dark,
To hell with this pride
I just feel like crying.

By Beneth 10/10/2010