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I wonder

Your words stir up my heart,
With a longing to hear more and more of you
Now that I’m hooked
I wonder,
Will something greater come out of this?
Will something more grow out of this?
Or my heart will hang on this loose thread?

It cuts into two
I should hold on a little longer?
Should I let go?
Could it be too soon?
Could I be holding onto a shadow?

I remember your word,
Filled with promise and hope
Yet waiting is so hard,
And everything else seems to be on a rush
What should I do?
I wonder

Beneth 21/01/2012
God is not a man, that he should lie, nor a son of man, that he should change his mind.  ……… Numbers 23:19

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I want it all

“Stop putting limits,
Not on what we can achieve,
Or on what we deserve,
And never on what God can do for us!”
She said.

This year I want it all,
Not part of,
Not some of it,
All the best I can have, I want it all.

I want to be closer to God,
So that I can hear him more,
Serve him as my master,
Count on him when things go tough,
And celebrate with him when all is well.
I would like that.

I want to have fun, enjoy my life more,
Laugh more without fear on how loud I am…
I want to be closer to my family,
Share with them as much as I can,
And end the story of ‘I will … bla bla… next time’.

I also want to learn new things,
Save more,
Invest more,
Travel more,
… So I may spend more!
But still, I want it all!

Beneth 15/01/2013

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His promise

I wish I was the one you call
When you are feeling week,
I would give you strength

I wish I was the one you call
When you are weary and burdened,
I would give you rest

I wish I was the one you call
When your heart is troubled
I would give you peace

I wish I was the one you call
When you are exited and filled with joy,
I would rejoice with you

I wish I was the one you call
When all your hope is gone,
I would comfort you

This is not just a wish, but a promise
If you call on my name I will be there for you.
Regardless of what you are going through,
Regardless of what you have done,
I love you so much to give up on you.

I will be there for you
And that is my promise.
Just call on the name of Jesus,
He will be there for you regardless
That is his promise to us.

Beneth 05/12/2012

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So HE Loved

Before time, he sang of his love for me.
He told me, he knows the hairs on my head,
And my name is tattooed on his hands!
Wow, I said to myself, this must be some great love….
Love, it got me thinking, and I wondered …
This could be any different?

    I have heard that before,
    I believe, you have too
    I love you, but don’t fat,
    I love you, provided you don’t run broke,
    I love you, and a car will be a great gift.
    So how is HIS love any different …?

Day after day he worked on bring me close to him,
To be acknowledged, adored, and for me to lean on him!
You know the kind of friend that wants to give, more than receive!
But still my heart was hardened,
As though, that was not enough,
I was busy to notice, his greatness,
Or how much we could achieve together
I have sooooo much to do
This and that is not done …
I lamented over and over again!

    Can you believe, I crossed the sea on foot?
    Yet worriers died in the sea waters,
    With their horses stuck in mad?
    Who am I to be that great?
    Who am I to be I more than worriers?
    No! No! No!
    It wasn’t me, well, not on my own making
    But of the one that loved me.
    So much He loved me to save my life!

Did I notice his greatness then?
Did I lean on him then…?
No, I was still trying to get things done,
Searching for a greater yearning…
May be in wrong places,
But I was busy.

    He took another shot at me,
    May be at US; you and me
    With a baby-like innocent smile
    He cried; I love you!
    But did we acknowledge him?
    Did we adore him?
    Did we learn to lean on him?
    No, we were filled with a bigger mirage of what we wanted to see!

We lived with a king, but we knew him not,
So much He loved us, but so little did we know,
And now, all I can say is….
Merry Christmas
Just as a reminder,
That the king is here with us,
Lets us acknowledge him
Adore him, and learn to lean on him all the days of our life
For that is how much He loves us!

Beneth 14/11/2012

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I surrender

All that I am,

I place in your hands,

All that I long to be,

I trust you

All that I cherish,

Is in you

All that worries me,

I give to you

All I need,

I ask of you

Just as I am

I surrender.

 

I place myself

At your feet,

There I find comfort,

And guidance

 

By myself I‘m nothing,

But with you,

I overcome

Alone, am tired and worn out,

With you I’m refreshed and hopeful.

 

I surrender to you

Oh God,

Be my guide,

And my comforter,

Beneth 12/08/2012

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Not you, but me

Like the wind chasing leaves off a branch,

So did I chase you away from me,

I know it puzzles you,

But don’t take it on yourself,

Nor wonder if anything is wrong with you

 

I understand your pain,

I know it hurts badly inside

And I know you need answers

I have been there, done same things

But acting over it does not take pain away

 

Loosen up, cry, shout, yell… whatever

Get that pain out of your heart

I need others to meet the ‘you’ I knew,

Continue to be the great person I met,

Well knowing it’s not you, but me.

 

Beneth 15/08/2012

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One dream, one desire

I have walked miles,

Dreamt of dreams

Painted images

Of all I desire to have.

And chased then at a time

 

Now I stand,

Not far from my destination,

With one dream, one desire

And one prayer

All the achievements feel null and void,

All the joy is covered with fog

And a tear is rolling around my eye.

 

I need you,

I want you,

Not so far from me

But so close to me

To share our lives together

I need you, I love you, I miss you.

 

Beneth 11/08/2012

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Missed Not Forgotten

You parted from us to soon,

Unexpected,

And so unprepared

To see you off

 

Now that you are no more

We miss you

We feel the empty space

You once filled.

 

Now that you no more,

We wonder;

Will what you started be completed?

Will someone like you fill the gap?

 

So many questions

Few answers,

You’re missed not forgotten.

By Beneth (For Suzan Eboku) on 09/08/2012